TEN LONG YEARS

It's been ten long years so I wouldn't hold your breath
It's getting to the stage I know what's coming next
And I find sometimes I still feel out of place
And I struggle hard getting through these days

It's been ten long years since we were even close
And I'm older now I should be wiser I suppose
But I feel no change, maybe that's where I went wrong
I've been standing still whilst everyone's moved on

Stop living in the past, there is no turning back
Hang on to your hopes and hold on to your head
When all's said and done there is no going back
Hold on to your dreams and hang on to your hat

Quit living in the past, there is no going back
Hang on to your hopes and hold on to yourself
The past is dead and gone there is no turning back
Hold on to your dreams and hang on to your hat

Ten long years

TALKING TO MYSELF

It's early in the day and I am still sleeping
Dreaming of the time when you and I shined
Everybody said that we were so perfect
So what happened to those times?

Soon I'm wide awake and draw back the curtains
I shield my eyes from the sun, don't want to go blind
Everyday's the same and life's so uncertain
I'm just hoping I'll get by

Everybody says that you should happy
How much longer can it be?

Talking to myself
I'm still talking to myself

WARMTH OF THE SUN

So you've made your choice and you think it's fine
But your doubt is working overtime
Now you're on your own
It's too late for advice
And you know there is no turning back

Do you feel the same as you board your plane
And you fly to the warmth of the sun
Will it be the same when you come home again
You'll rely on the warmth of the sun

Now you seem so cold
What a fool I've been
How we came so close, I was taken in
With your plans so full, you've the rest of your life
I'm the one who's feeling left behind

Do you feel the same as you board your plane
And you fly to the warmth of the sun
Will you think about how I'm the one you left out
You can't hide in the warmth of the sun

Do you feel the same as you board your plane
And you fly to the warmth of the sun
It'll be the same when you come home again
Then you'll cry for the warmth of someone

HOW MUCH

I dreamt of you last night
And you were laughing
In Summer days long gone
How I miss them
I think of all the times
When we were smiling
I think about them now
How much I miss you

Nothing seems to satisfy
Now that I am alone
There's nothing here to pacify
The way I feel

I sit here every night
And I'm waiting
For you to call my 'phone
And say "I miss you"
I understand my hope
Is merely wishing
I want to tell you
How much I miss you

Nothing seems to satisfy
Now that I am alone
Nothing seems to pacify
The way I feel
Nothing seems to matter
You don't care anymore
Nothing seems to matter
Because you're gone

I dreamt of us last night
And we were happy
I think about us now
And I miss you
I thought of you today
And I'm yearning
For Summer days long gone
How I miss you

How much I miss you

BLUE WATER

Blue water cools down the heat today
This postcard I write so far away
I'm sorry you felt left behind
I'm sorry I left…

Blue water so clear
You turned the tide
Confusion is all I feel inside
I'm sorry you felt left behind
I'm sorry I left…

We made mistakes we cannot hide
Now it's too late

Blue water so calm but still so deep
The promise you made was held so cheap
I'm sorry you felt left behind
So sorry I left…

WHEN WILL IT HAPPEN?

I asked a scientist if he could tell me when
The wretched luck I am experiencing will end
He looked with puzzlement and all he could explain
Were the complexities involved with the laws of time and space

When will it happen, when will it start?
When will it happen, when will it start?

I consulted a medium to see if she could help
To predict my future life and advise me what's ahead
But she could not assist and all she could provide
Was contact from some folk on the other side

When will it will happen, when will it start?
When will it will happen, when will it start?

I've sunk a long way down
But I've tried to get up again
Never broke my vows
I've tried to live up to them

A mathematician claimed that he would have success
By using formulae, calculating my request
For all his algebra and probabilities
Once again it failed to prove conclusively

When it will happen, when it will start
When will it happen, when will it start?

I've sunk a long way down
But I've tried to get up again
Never broke my vows
I've tried to live up to them
It's been a long time now
I want to find love again
Take a long hard look
The mirror is not my friend

NOW OR NEVER

I believed you when you said
That our love would never end
It would last forever
You convinced me when you said
That on me you'd always depend
We'd stay together

It's my mistake

What was I to do when you told me
That you wanted more space?
It's now or never
I found out one day
All the love you had with me
You thought was misplaced
That's not so clever

I'd lie awake
So I've hid away
And I've not found anyone
To take her place
I can't forget her
Now I live each day being reassured
That someone will come my way
It's not forever

I shied away

I'll find a way
I hope to gain what I have lost some day
I hope to find what I have lost one day

ACHE

I get up everyday and realise you're gone
There's nothing left to say I guess you have moved on
You'll wake up in the sun
And realise I'm the one who paid

I ache

Once there was a time when you and I were close
I missed my chance again
It was destined I suppose
You're telling everyone
It's for the best we went our separate ways

I ache

You'll wake up in the sun
You're telling everyone
Of everything you've done
To convince yourself it's my mistake

I ache

HEAD IN YOUR HANDS

When there's nothing left to do
And there's nothing left to say
Your head in your hands
When there's nothing left to prove
And nothing left to offer
And you don't understand

You can't escape what tomorrow brings
I've no more time to waste

I've nothing left to give
So there's no more you can take
Your head in your hands
We've been here once before
I don't want you anymore
I'm no longer in your plans

Our once true love is desolate
You've no one to manipulate

You're filled with bitterness
Because there's no one else to blame
Your head in your hands
Well I've had enough to taste
And refuse to play your games
Why don't you understand?

I'm the one who wants to turn away
This time I'll make the break

I'm the one who wants to move away
So don't get in my way

If I had the chance to choose
Would I want our time again?
No way!

If we could start again
Would I put up with all the pain?
No way!

There's nothing you can do
And nothing you can say
No way!

Do you think I'll change my mind
Do you think I'll hesitate?
No way!

BULLET

Please don't talk to me
You're not what you seem to be
It may have been obvious
But there's never been certainty

It's over now, it's gone
Like a bullet through my heart
Like a bullet to my heart
Like a bullet through my heart
I've been hurt

Please don't look at me
I don't know what you want from me
It could have been serious
But it wasn't meant to be

It's over now, it's gone
Like a bullet through my heart
Like a bullet to my heart
Like a bullet through my heart
I've been hurt

LOSING FAITH

Where do I begin and where will it all end?
I still don't have the answer
I guess I'm losing faith
Things get in the way
I don't know where I'm going

So goodbye my love

The clock will tick away
I want to sleep all day
I just don't understand you
I know I'm losing faith
Dreams get in the way
I don't know where we're going

So goodbye my love

APART

Whatever you want
I'm somehow resigned
To a love that will never be returned
If that's what you want
And if that's how you feel
Won't say what I was willing to reveal
This is your time
This is your life

Everyday we're apart I want you more

Whatever you need I hope you can find
The love you give may never be returned
But if he's who you want
How can I reply?
Maybe we'll love in another life
This is my time
This is my life

Everyday we're apart I want you more

THIS TIME

Don't ask me why we've been divided so long
I can't tell you why but I know this time
We'll stay close forever more
This time I'll try

To make you feel alright
I'll make you feel alright

Don't ask me why we've been fighting so long
I don't know why
I'm sure this time we'll be in love forever more
This time I'm right

I'll make you feel so bright
I know we'll be alright

This time I'll try

STILL

At night I call your name
It's a stage I'm going through
It should be time to live again
This is what I ought to do

I sometimes feel the pain
Because the ghost of you remains
I love you still

In dreams you're here again
It's a phase I'm going through
Should be time to sleep again
But without the thoughts of you

At times I trawl again
Through the bittersweet remains
I love you still

Living in a hope for something that will never be
Believing and praying you'll come to rescue me

I sometimes feel the pain
Though no bitterness remains
I love you still


APPETENCE

I had fallen in love
It was never enough

When your head is full of memories
(And you just can't let it go)
When your head is full of fantasy
(And your heart won't let it go)

I thought we shared a trust
What became of us?

When your head is full of memories
(And you just can't let it go)
When your head is full of fantasy
(When your heart won't let it go)